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What LOVE meant for YOU?

Love,love,love.....?For me,love can be anything because love is commonly contrasted with hate,love is commonly contrasted with friendship,and love is commonly contrasted with falling in love with someone.Love is something to give,not to get.

Bad moOD!!

I need my own space but I can't,someone disturb me...............

PaiNt oF liFe....

10th grade **********

As I sat there in English class,

I stared at the girl next to me.

She was my so called 'best friend'.

I stared at her long, silky hair,

and wished she was mine.

But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.

after class, she walked up to me

and asked me for the notes

she had missed the day before.

I handed them to her.

She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her,

I want her to know that

I dont want to be just friends,

I love her

but I'm just too shy,

and I dont know why.



11th grade **********



The phone rang.

On the other end,

it was her.

She was in tears,

mumbling on and on about how

her love had broke her heart.

She asked me to come over

because she didn't want to be alone,

so I did.

As I sat next to her on the sofa,

I stared at her soft eyes,

wishing she was mine.

After 2 hours,

one Drew Barrymore movie,

and three bags of chips,

she decided to go to sleep.

She looked at me,

said 'thanks'

and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her,

I want her to know

that I don't want to be just friends,

I love her

but I'm just too shy,

and I dont know why.

Senior year ***********

The day before prom

she walked to my locker.

"My date is sick" she said, "he's not gonna go"

well, I didn't have a date,

and in 7th grade, we made a promise

that if neither of us had dates,

we would go together just as 'best friends'.

So we did.

Prom night, after everything was over,

I was standing at her front door step.

I stared at her as she smiled at me

and stared at me with her crystal eyes.

I want her to be mine,

but she isn't think of me like that,

and I know it.

Then she said- "I had the best time,thanks!"

and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her,

I want her to know that

I dont want to be just friends,

I love her but

I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

A day passed, then a week,then a month.

Before I could blink, it was graduation day.

I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel

up on stage to get her diploma.

I wanted her to be mine-

but she didn't notice me like that,

and I knew it.

Before everyone went home,

she came to me in her smock and hat,

and cried as I hugged her.

Then she lifted her head

from my shoulder and said-

'you're my best friend,thanks'

and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

I want to tell her,

I want her to know

that I dont want to be just friends,

I love her but I'm just too shy,

and I don't know why.

Now I sit in the pews of the church.

That girl is getting married now.

I watched her say 'I do'

and drive off to her new life,

married to another man.

I wanted her to be mine,

but she didn't see me like that,

and I knew it.

But before she drove away,

she came to me and said 'you came!'.

She said 'thanks'

and kissed me on the cheek.

I want to tell her,

I want her to know

that I dont want to be just friends,

I love her

but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Years passed,

I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.

At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school

years.

This is what it read:

"I stare at him wishing he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like

that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't

want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know

why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!"

'I wish I did too...' I thought to myself, and I cried.

Do yourself a favor, tell her/him you love them. They won't be

there forever.

Long time no see o my blog..Miss U.Finaly,he come back 2 Sabah.Im waiting for him for 3months.Do u know??How my feeLing is?Im hapy,very hapy!!..I will see him..=)wahwah..

Trapped

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I'm standing in the middle of nowhere,
waiting for someone to take me away.

I'm sick of this place,
Its killing me to death.

Somebody, please.
HELP me.

HelLo everyonE...!erM...Do U knoW mE?of coursE,yes,right..?But,im stilL want 2 telL U alL about myself..k.Im Vera Fredica Maikol.I was born on 15/11/91 N im living at Kg Tenghilan,Tuaran.About my studies,iN secondry schoOL,im study at S.M.K Tenghilan N now,im study at UiTM Sabah in Dipolma in Banking.



- aBout mE -
' loverVERA '

>caN calL mE vera OR maNja..hehe..
>borN at Hospital Queen Elizabeth
>I havE 2 siblings,including mE..( im dE eldest,i hve 1 sister )
>my father work as a supervisor N my mother work as de printing.they worK hard to givE my sister N mE a comportable liFe.Do U alL know,I LOVE MY PARENTS SO MUCH...they are everthing 2 mE.Without them,im not here now..iN UiTM.
>I thinK U alL know that I likE tO EAT,hehe..im oweZ hungry..hahahaa...mayB somE of U nver blieve that.I must eat,if not i feEL boink n sleEpy.huhu...
>My fvouritE colour iS blacK...
eRM...last but not least,

IF U HAVE A KNOWLEDGE,U IS SOMEBODY
BUT
IF U NOT HAVE A KNOWLEDGE,U IS NOBODY!!!!!